Our Vines

Our vines are thriving, although growing a bit slowly. Our children progress as well. While it would be so easy to have healthy children, I appreciate the gifts God has given me.

Our Baby Is Sick

Our littlest one is ill with a heart defect. We are having a difficult time.

A Meeting, An Appointment and Rest

We've got our monthly meeting (and showing off the new baby) followed by baby's doctor appointment. Then, I'll likely need a long rest this afternoon with the baby. Thank heavens for the grandparents and their help with the older boys.

A Bit Off

We're shopping with all three boys for the first time today. Tomorrow will be so busy with a meeting and doctor's appointment, that we won't have time then. Today will be an adventure!

Learning Our New Schedule

With the Vintner now back at work after two weeks at home caring for me, then for both me and the new baby, we are learning our new schedule. We have a couple of months to settle in before formal home schooling lessons begin. We also have swim lessons next month, and lots of visiting with the new baby. We'll see how things go!

Our New Baby

Our third child was born July 2nd. We have our third son and are settling into our newborn days.

Counting Down the Days

We're counting down the days until our new little one arrives. We look forward to the joys of a newborn in the family.

While Awaiting, We're Gearing Up For Homeschooling

I've enjoyed reading John Taylor Gatto and watching videos of his speeches on You Tube. We'll be full-on formally homeschooling in the fall, and now is the time to get focused and inspired to work.

Awaiting Baby

Baby #3 is a few short weeks away. We are only awaiting for the Big Day now. We're spending our time resting as much as possible, knitting and keeping house.

Homeschool Supplies

We've ordered our home school supplies from Marva Collins Seminars, Inc. We have all summer to prepare and then begin shortly after Labor Day. Also, we are full-on potty training. It will be a busy time!

A Baby Soon

We are a bit quiet, eagerly awaiting the new baby next month. I don't expect the little one within the next two weeks, but after that, any time is good.

Contemplating Compassion

During these quiet days, I've had time to reflect on compassion. I struggle so with my conflict with my parents and in-laws. It is so difficult for me to show deference and due respect, when I feel so bossed around and bullied. Even though it is not mean spirited, but well intentioned, I strain nonetheless. I pray every day, twice a day, for the right things to say and do. I only hope to be the best parent I can be to my own children. These days impending the birth of my youngest child brings this struggle to the forefront of my mind.

Talking about Fears in the Wee Hours

Last night, my oldest son had a nightmare. He came to me instead of the Vintner and cuddled. He told me all about the "thunderstorm" and his fears. We then talked about what daddy and mommy fear - things he doesn't (like iatrogenic injury.) I loved those learning moments. It was so worth the sacrifice of some sleep to talk to him about what nightmares are and how everyone has them and fears. The moments of parenting come to you, not you to them. One cannot schedule child development around adult time tables and convenience.

Possible Social Play

Yesterday, I had some time to socialize with ladies. It was lovely. Today, the children want their turn. We'll try to schedule a play date for them. Otherwise, we have a quiet day at home. Perhaps we'll have time to clean and tidy the house after a busy weekend.

Reflecting on Titus 2 and Doulas

While expecting my second child, I had a vision of being a postpartum doula in future years. Now, of course, I'm more of need of one than being one. I will be fine without the expense. However, I do hope that our prayers for a new church home will be answered in the next few months or years. Last night, I even dreamed this came true. From that home, I would hope that a role I can fulfill would be in assisting new mothers and younger women. God's will be done.

Mountains of Baby Laundry

Usually on shopping day, I have a break from laundry. Instead, I'm making the most of the spring sunshine, and getting all the baby laundry from storage washed and line dried. I'll sort, rewash and organize for the new baby.

Also, yesterday I was given a virtually unused baby sling. I'd only seen the Balboa once, and thought them delightful. Never did I imagine that I'd receive one myself. This new baby will be so spoiled, as will I. Five total at my disposal, I imagine I'll use the two newest the most.

A Beautiful Spring Day

The new baby is growing well, and eagerly awaited. We're enjoying the spring weather, kicking back and counting the leaves on the vines. It's time to relax and ease into the rhythms of early childhood.

The Last Library Storytime for Summer

Today will be our last library story time for the summer. While the library only takes off for May, our new baby will arrive sometime in June. We won't bother with the library until the September session begins. Our only activity will be swim lessons in August. It's time to pull back, and stay home after today.

A Return to Laundry Drying Outside

Over the last few days, I've returned to my springtime and summer habit of hanging out the laundry to dry on racks. While I have done it year round, it was a bit much with this pregnancy. I imagine that I'll restrict my dryer use to only rainy days, despite the advancing weeks, and a new baby soon. It smells so fresh and nice. Plus, it's a small testament to the little pleasures that only a homemaker can provide.

A Labor of Love

The work I do every day is no moil; it is a labor of love. I have the privilege of fleeting moments of kisses, hugs, comfort, discipline and watching my own children grow. The Vintner doesn't have this joy. His work is draining, boring and difficult. He doesn't get to push the children on a swing for an hour, observing the progress of the grape vines. He doesn't get a rest when the children rest. Granted, he doesn't get covered in bodily soils too often at the office. I know that I'd rather have my challenges than his any day.

Planting anew

I've planted a few seeds this morning. It felt so good to get into my garden and put in something. It looked so bare and forlorn. While nothing may grow, and with a new baby soon, I'm not attending it much, I'm happy. Whatever grows is a blessing. It's not a year for intensity in the garden; there will be other years for that. The season of my life is in making new babies. There will be other seasons for elaborate attention to the garden and vines.

I'm also resting as much as possible, and wrapping up preparations. We have all the essentials, despite what the world considers essentials. There's no nursery, and not likely to be one. While there are parts for a crib, I don't care if it's ever assembled. It's not the crib I wanted for my baby, and I have no inclination to reorder my entire home around the style of someone else's choice of a crib. I'll just make the best of things.

I am very much enjoying the new Ladies Against Feminism, and hope to improve my own blog accordingly.

Growing Vines

Our vines continue to grow. The one that gave me the most concern last year is the one thriving this year. The other vine doesn't quite get as much sunshine, and is a bit behind, but doing well. While in general I don't want too many photos on this blog, I intend to take a few of the vines and post them.

Our attempt to visit a new place of worship did not go well. We chose a neighborhood church, instead of where we felt led. I was stressed for the rest of the day. I realize that it may be a very long time indeed before we find a home.

New Leaves of 2010

Both of our vines have young leaves on them. Amen! The vineyard is coming along. We pray for a healthy, happy year for them, and for finding a new church home this year, as well.

Possible help with the children

Grandparents are coming to occupy the children's attention this morning. I'm remarkably stressed about it. I fear it will not go well, and I will not receive the help I need. Perhaps it won't be as I fear: disrespect towards me.

I pray for compassion and patience on my part this morning - and fortitude against any well-intentioned but painful comments. The pregnancy hormones are making me rather vulnerable to comments that I ordinarily find annoying, but now find enraging.

Easter Tuesday

For Easter Tuesday, we have prayer, library story time, toddler play time and possibly errands. We do also need lots of rest and quiet, both for the new baby, and not to exhaust our little ones. We yet await the budding of our vines.

Easter Monday

It's a quiet day here at the Cottage. Our vines have yet to sprout new leaves, but the other plants are emerging. The roses are already blooming. It's a beautiful, quiet day. After the excitement and running around of the new minivan last week, we're tired and needing a quiet day at home.

Easter Monday

O GOD, whose blessed Son did manifest himself to his disciples in the breaking of bread; Open, we pray thee, the eyes of our faith, that we may behold thee in all thy works; through the same thy Son Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.

Happy Easter

We celebrate with Joy, Love and Praise today. We'll have time for family, fun and feasting on this Holiest of Days.

Good Friday

ALMIGHTY God, we beseech thee graciously to behold this thy family, for which our Lord Jesus Christ was contented to be betrayed, and given up into the hands of wicked men, and to suffer death upon the cross; who now liveth and reigneth with thee and the Holy Ghost ever, one God, world without end. Amen.

Maundy Thursday

The Collect

ALMIGHTY Father, whose dear Son, on the night before he suffered, did institute the Sacrament of his Body and Blood; Mercifully grant that we may thankfully receive the same in remembrance of him, who in these holy mysteries giveth us a pledge of life eternal; the same thy Son Jesus Christ our Lord, who now liveth and reigneth with thee and the Holy Spirit ever, one God, world without end. Amen.

The Epistle
1 Corinthians xi. 23.

I HAVE received of the Lord that which also I delivered unto you, That the Lord Jesus the same night in which he was betrayed took bread: and when he had given thanks, he brake it, and said, Take, eat: this is my body, which is broken for you: this do in remembrance of me. After the same manner also he took the cup, when he had supped, saying, This cup is the new testament in my blood: this do ye, as oft as ye drink it, in remembrance of me. For as often as ye eat this bread, and drink this cup, ye do shew the Lord's death till he come.

The Gospel
St. Luke xxiii. 1.

THE whole multitude of them arose, and led him unto Pilate . And they began to accuse him, saying, We found this fellow perverting the nation, and forbidding to give tribute to Caesar, saying that he himself is Christ a King. And Pilate asked him, saying, Art thou the King of the Jews? And he answered him and said, Thou sayest it. Then said Pilate to the chief priests and to the people, I find no fault in this man. And they were the more fierce, saying, He stirreth up the people, teaching throughout all Jewry, beginning from Galilee to this place. When Pilate heard of Galilee, he asked whether the man were a Galilaean. And as soon as he knew that he belonged unto Herod's jurisdiction, he sent him to Herod, who himself also was at Jerusalem at that time. And when Herod saw Jesus, he was exceeding glad: for he was desirous to see him of a long season, because he had heard many things of him; and he hoped to have seen some miracle done by him. Then he questioned with him in many words; but he answered him nothing. And the chief priests and scribes stood and vehemently accused him. And Herod with his men of war set him at nought, and mocked him, and arrayed him in a gorgeous robe, and sent him again to Pilate. And the same day Pilate and Herod were made friends together: for before they were at enmity between themselves. And Pilate, when he had called together the chief priests and the rulers and the people, said unto them, Ye have brought this man unto me, as one that perverteth the people: and, behold, I, having examined him before you, have found no fault in this man touching those things whereof ye accuse him: no, nor yet Herod: for I sent you to him; and, lo, nothing worthy of death is done unto him. I will therefore chastise him, and release him. (For of necessity he must release one unto them at the feast.) And they cried out all at once, saying, Away with this man, and release unto us Barabbas: (who for a certain sedition made in the city, and for murder, was cast into prison.) Pilate therefore, willing to release Jesus, spake again to them. But they cried, saying, Crucify him, crucify him. And he said unto them the third time, Why, what evil hath he done? I have found no cause of death in him: I will therefore chastise him, and let him go. And they were instant with loud voices, requiring that he might be crucified. And the voices of them and of the chief priests prevailed. And Pilate gave sentence that it should be as they required. And he released unto them him that for sedition and murder was cast into prison, whom they had desired; but he delivered Jesus to their will. And as they led him away, they laid hold upon one Simon, a Cyrenian, coming out of the country, and on him they laid the cross, that he might bear it after Jesus. And there followed him a great company of people, and of women, which also bewailed and lamented him. But Jesus turning unto them said, Daughters of Jerusalem, weep not for me, but weep for yourselves, and for your children. For, behold, the days are coming, in the which they shall say, Blessed are the barren, and the wombs that never bare, and the paps which never gave suck. Then shall they begin to say to the mountains, Fall on us; and to the hills, Cover us. For if they do these things in a green tree, what shall be done in the dry? And there were also two other, malefactors, led with him to be put to death. And when they were come to the place which is called Calvary, there they crucified him, and the malefactors, one on the right hand, and the other on the left. Then said Jesus, Father, forgive them; for they know not what they do. And they parted his raiment, and cast lots. And the people stood beholding. And the rulers also with them derided him, saying, He saved others; let him save himself, if he be Christ, the chosen of God. And the soldiers also mocked him, coming to him, and offering him vinegar, and saying, If thou be the king of the Jews, save thyself. And a superscription also was written over him, in letters of Greek, and Latin, and Hebrew, THIS IS THE KING OF THE JEWS. And one of the malefactors which were hanged railed on him, saying, If thou be Christ, save thyself and us. But the other answering rebuked him, saying, Dost not thou fear God, seeing thou art in the same condemnation? And we indeed justly; for we receive the due reward of our deeds: but this man hath done nothing amiss. And he said unto Jesus, Lord, remember me when thou comest into thy kingdom. And Jesus said unto him, Verily I say unto thee, To-day shalt thou be with me in paradise. And it was about the sixth hour, and there was a darkness over all the earth until the ninth hour. And the sun was darkened, and the veil of the temple was rent in the midst. And when Jesus had cried with a loud voice, he said, Father, into thy hands I commend my spirit: and having said thus, he gave up the ghost. Now when the centurion saw what was done, he glorified God, saying, Certainly this was a righteous man. And all the people that came together to that sight, beholding the things which were done, smote their breasts, and returned. And all his acquaintance, and the women that followed him from Galilee, stood afar off, beholding these things.

Or else this that followeth.


The Gospel

St. John xiii. 1.

NOW before the feast of the passover, when Jesus knew that his hour was come that he should depart out of this world unto the Father, having loved his own which were in the world, he loved them unto the end. And supper being ended, the devil having now put into the heart of Judas Iscariot, Simon's son, to betray him; Jesus knowing that the Father had given all things into his hands, and that he was come from God, and went to God; he riseth from supper, and laid aside his garments; and took a towel, and girded himself. After that he poureth water into a bason, and began to wash the disciples' feet, and to wipe them with the towel wherewith he was girded. Then cometh he to Simon Peter: and Peter saith unto him, Lord, dost thou wash my feet? Jesus answered and said unto him, What I do thou knowest not now; but thou shalt know hereafter. Peter saith unto him, Thou shalt never wash my feet. Jesus answered him, If I wash thee not, thou hast no part with me. Simon Peter saith unto him, Lord, not my feet only, but also my hands and my head. Jesus saith to him, He that is washed needeth not save to wash his feet, but is clean every whit: and ye are clean, but not all. For he knew who should betray him; therefore said he, Ye are not all clean. So after he had washed their feet, and had taken his garments, and was set down again, he said unto them, Know ye what I have done to you? Ye call me Master and Lord: and ye say well; for so I am. If I then, your Lord and Master, have washed your feet; ye also ought to wash one another's feet. For I have given you an example, that ye should do as I have done to you.

Sold the car; Buying a Minivan

Two very busy days: sold one car, buying another. We should be back to a two car family this evening, if we like it. We're getting through a day of one car, and busy activity. Fortunately, the kids have grandma and grandpa for this afternoon. I somehow managed the shopping, and we'll work monthly errands in two. Plus, we have preparations for hot cross buns tomorrow, and Maundy Thursday prayers. Whew!

Library Story Time

My toddler loves his new class at story time. Today is week two of his new fun. He was definitely ready to be done with baby stories, and move on to more active classes. He's a runner!

Also, we are still working on selling the car. Busy days at the cottage.

Cleaning, Selling, Feasting

We're cleaning the kitchen and preparing a chicken matzo soup for supper. We don't keep Passover in a religious sense, but only in a culinary one. Plus, I love chicken soup. It does feel good to have an excuse to get the kitchen really clean.

We're selling the car today or tomorrow, and buying a minivan. It's a bit crazy and stressful, but it has to be done.

This evening we will have time for feasting of the Monday in Holy Week. We are feasting within the fast, so to speak. Keeping Lent but preparing for the Joy to come. We are praying full prayers every day this week, and seeking Holy Guidance toward joining a church.

More Progress

I've had more progress, but it's not enough. I doubt that I'll get to where I want to be. Even so, I have done more than others might. I've done less that others, too. This is the only time in my life that I'll be expecting my third child, so I try not to be too hard on myself.

• Scrubbing the kitchen countertops
  
• Scrubbing the Walls with Borax
• Pulling out the furniture and inspecting and cleaning behind it
• Cleaning out the children's toys and clothes and storage containers thereof
• Opening the windows and letting in fresh air and light
• Sweeping and scrubbing solid surface floors
• Vacuuming carpeted floors
• Putting everything back and tidying up afterwards
• Washing the windows

Continued Progress

As Passiontide progresses, so does my cleaning. I got another cabinet cleaned yesterday. Today, I had shopping and errands in the morning, followed by countertops scheduled for the afternoon. It's a bit too cool for outside play, so we should get plenty of time for inside work.

• Scrubbing the kitchen, partially complete
  
• Scrubbing the Walls with Borax
• Pulling out the furniture and inspecting and cleaning behind it
• Cleaning out the children's toys and clothes and storage containers thereof
• Opening the windows and letting in fresh air and light
• Sweeping and scrubbing solid surface floors
• Vacuuming carpeted floors
• Putting everything back and tidying up afterwards
• Washing the windows

Lady Day

The Collect

The Annunciation of the Blessed Virgin Mary

WE beseech thee, O Lord, pour thy grace into our hearts; that, as we have known the incarnation of thy Son Jesus Christ by the message of an angel, so by his cross and passion we may be brought into the glory of his resurrection; through the same Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.

Ash Wednesday

ALMIGHTY and everlasting God, who hatest nothing that thou hast made, and dost forgive the sins of all those who are penitent; Create and make in us new and contrite hearts, that we, worthily lamenting our sins and acknowledging our wretchedness, may obtain of thee, the God of all mercy, perfect remission and forgiveness; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.

Finding a Window

I think if I rearrange my schedule for a window of cleaning in the late afternoon, I can get on top of it. I managed to make further progress with this yesterday. The children seem to prefer free play at this time anyway. Otherwise, it's good for supervised outdoor play or cookie baking. My list continues:

• Scrubbing the kitchen, partially complete
  
• Scrubbing the Walls with Borax
• Pulling out the furniture and inspecting and cleaning behind it
• Cleaning out the children's toys and clothes and storage containers thereof
• Opening the windows and letting in fresh air and light
• Removing all items from the kitchen cabinets and scrubbing inside them, partially complete
  
• Sweeping and scrubbing solid surface floors
• Vacuuming carpeted floors
• Putting everything back and tidying up afterwards
• Washing the windows

Exiguous Progress

How appropriate that the word of today is "exiguous," since that's the progress I made yesterday on cleaning. Still, progress is progress. I've dusted and done the bathroom. Now if I can just do a bit more, I'll get on top of things for Passiontide.

• Scrubbing the kitchen, partially complete
  
• Scrubbing the Walls with Borax
• Pulling out the furniture and inspecting and cleaning behind it
• Cleaning out the children's toys and clothes and storage containers thereof
• Opening the windows and letting in fresh air and light
• Removing all items from the kitchen cabinets and scrubbing inside them
• Sweeping and scrubbing solid surface floors
• Vacuuming carpeted floors
• Putting everything back and tidying up afterwards
• Washing the windows

Still striving

During Passiontide, I'm particularly keen to clean the house. I'm learning how to put this all together, and it will take a while. I refuse to change who I am, and be someone else. If it doesn't come together as I hoped, then I will find my own path. I refuse to comprise on my child care for the sake of housework.

Passiontide

WE beseech thee, Almighty God, mercifully to look upon thy people; that by thy great goodness they may be governed and preserved evermore, both in body and soul; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.

The Fourth Week of Lent

Part of my prayers have been answered. A friend has invited my husband and I to a social event affiliated with their church. I hope this is a step we can take to finding our spiritual home.

Fourth Sunday in Lent

GRANT, we beseech thee, Almighty God, that we, who for our evil deeds do worthily deserve to be punished, by the comfort of thy grace may mercifully be relieved; through our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. Amen.

Ash Wednesday

ALMIGHTY and everlasting God, who hatest nothing that thou hast made, and dost forgive the sins of all those who are penitent; Create and make in us new and contrite hearts, that we, worthily lamenting our sins and acknowledging our wretchedness, may obtain of thee, the God of all mercy, perfect remission and forgiveness; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.

Cleaning Day, Part 3

I am determined to clean, regardless of how many days it takes to accomplish the list. Here's where I stand now:

• Dusting, including wainscoting
• Ceiling fans
• Scrubbing the bathroom, what remains after a partial cleaning
  
• Scrubbing the kitchen, partially complete
  
• Scrubbing the Walls with Borax
• Pulling out the furniture and inspecting and cleaning behind it
• Cleaning out the children's toys and clothes and storage containers thereof
• Opening the windows and letting in fresh air and light
• Removing all items from the kitchen cabinets and scrubbing inside them
• Sweeping and scrubbing solid surface floors
• Vacuuming carpeted floors
• Putting everything back and tidying up afterwards
• Washing the windows

Cleaning and Baking, Day 2

• Dusting, including wainscoting
• Ceiling fans
• Scrubbing the bathroom, ceiling to floor
• Scrubbing the kitchen, ceiling to floor
• Scrubbing the Walls with Borax
• Pulling out the furniture and inspecting and cleaning behind it
• Cleaning out the children's toys and clothes and storage containers thereof
• Opening the windows and letting in fresh air and light
• Removing all items from the kitchen cabinets and scrubbing inside them
• Sweeping and scrubbing solid surface floors
• Vacuuming carpeted floors
• Putting everything back and tidying up afterwards
• Washing the windows
• Baking bread
• Baking cookies for the week
• Feeding the sourdough starter
• Setting the brown rice and lentils to lacto-ferment for tomorrow's kedgeree
  

Cleaning Day

Friday is my cleaning day. Here's my list:

• Dusting, including wainscoting
• Ceiling fans
• Scrubbing the bathroom, ceiling to floor
• Scrubbing the kitchen, ceiling to floor
• Washing Sheets and line drying them
• Scrubbing the Walls with Borax
• Pulling out the furniture and inspecting and cleaning behind it
• Cleaning out the children's toys and clothes and storage containers thereof
• Opening the windows and letting in fresh air and light
• Removing all items from the kitchen cabinets and scrubbing inside them
• Sweeping and scrubbing solid surface floors
• Vacuuming carpeted floors
• Putting everything back and tidying up afterwards

Some of these items are seasonal, not weekly cleaning. It is early spring, and time for a full list. I may not have the wherewithal to complete the whole list, especially while pregnant. I know other women express their nesting urge through cleaning; however, I find the physical strain too much for me. Besides, my nesting urge is expressed through needlework. My mind doesn't worry about whether the ceiling fans are clean enough for the new baby. I become possessed that the baby doesn't have enough booties, and knit until my hands curl with cramping. A woman doesn't necessarily have rhyme or reason to her nesting, and that's just how it is with me. I'm more cleaning oriented before and after a pregnancy than I am during. I am able to put down crochet and knitting while not pregnant. Such is life.

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Shopping and Play

I've had a morning of busy shopping, followed by play. Now, it's nap time, and fun for my older son. We'll have outside play this afternoon.

Our Anniversary

Today is the wedding anniversary for the Vintner and me. It's also the day our second son turns 18 months old. We have a doctor's appointment for him and a prenatal appointment for the new one arriving in June.

Too Rainy for Outside Play

These poor boys have only had two days in the last few weeks. Between weather and colds, they've been so cooped up. Today, it's raining as it was yesterday. We'll have indoor fun, but there's only so much coloring little boys enjoy. We hope for an adventurous day tomorrow.

Frustration

I wasn't as successful yesterday with childcare as I hoped. While I did get some things done, I didn't get my goals done. I've become so frustrated. If I don't do the things the grandmothers expect, they'll take liberties with my home and do them. However, they do them the way they think they should be done, and not how I do them. For instance, one sees a pile of laundry, folds it and puts it away in the drawers that she thinks it should go in. However, that was dirty laundry, and she puts them in drawers I don't think to look. After a few weeks of giving up on the "lost" laundry, I discover moldy, fuzzy clothes. Another unloads my dishwasher - and puts my dishes in the cabinets wherever she chooses. I regularly spend days undoing the puzzle. By the time I have it back together, she comes again. I ask, beg and plead for them not to "help" but they just shift their "help" to another area of the house. What would I really love? If they would just do the very specific thing that I've asked them to come over to do: child care. I can't get out the harsh chemical and scrub off the mold from the windowsill with children climbing up my legs. I could with them distracted and supervised in another room or playing in the backyard. I feel judgment that I don't keep a clean enough house for the children because we have mold on the windowsills. They both expect that children to just play by themselves at one and three. One strongly encourages plopping the children in front of "educational television" so that I can "get it done." This is what neither I nor the Vintner approve for our children. During early childhood, our children come first, the housework must come second. Although, the house work still must be done. I'm so frustrated that I can't get through to them. I would have thought that child care would be a grandparent's first choice, not five minutes of a two-hour visit.

I would appreciate any insight. I try to understand: they see laundry. They think, "I can fold laundry. That would help." They hear me say, "Don't bother with that. Please help with the children." Why they ignore that I can't understand. The reason the laundry is piled up is not because I need help with the laundry. The reason the laundry is piled up is because I need help with the children. Before I had children, I was a home maker who ran a tight ship. I know how to do all these things, and love doing them, and am passionate about home making. If I could just get help with my number one priority, then I could get to my other priorities on the list. I get so frustrated that others see all my other priorities and want to take them over. That leaves me with no break from Job #1. As much as I love my children, I also love being a home maker. Not getting my time to do that work frustrates me.

I try to see that they have different values; they have both been career women. Being a home maker is "boring drudgery." They can't imagine that someone would love house work and not have it all done. They can't imagine spending all this time on child care, when there are dishes to be done. The children can just play with their toys and I can just talk over my shoulder to them. That's the way they did it when their children were young. I just need someone to show me how this is done. I'm doing it all wrong, right from birth (insert various comments here from infant care on up through age three). I look at that point of view and the criticism. I can't do it. I can't wake up and be a different person. I can't tell my children "just a minute while I finish this," twenty times a day. I can't run around cleaning when my children sleep. I can't do things the way they think they should be done, from child care to house work. I don't value "having it all done so I can get on with things," because the things of the home are the things most important. I've tried to examine myself and see myself as "just being difficult." I'm willing to consider that I am "wrong," but I have a hard time seeing how someone can be wrong for being who they are. I've tried saying to myself that I should consider my blessings, and see how fortunate the children are to have grandparents. I've bit my tongue due to this last reason for, well, over three years now.

Perhaps it's just the pregnancy hormones making me extra sensitive at this time. I know the Vintner is always frustrated that his wife's way of running the home is criticized. I know he's not happy that they do these things. I know he doesn't want their way of home management. He's point blank said, "As long as you don't run the house the way your mother does..." and "I hated the way my mother ran things. As long as you don't do it that way..." "Our children always come first..." So, I wonder if I should just continue to bite my tongue during the pregnancy, and let him handle it if it gets out of control.

Hmmm...

Spring Cleaning

With luck, I'll begin my spring cleaning this morning, or possibly afternoon. There is much to do. I need to remove everything from the kitchen cabinets and scrub them down. I don't know how it will be possible without child care. Perhaps I can arrange some in the next few weeks with kids on spring break. I would love to get the house in good order before the new baby arrives in early summer. Without child care, I may just have to muddle through.

Suggestions of Spring

As the weather begins to warm, I'll get a chance to take the boys out to play this afternoon. I'll also assess the garden, and plan the work to come. Due to the pregnancy, gardening will be abbreviated this year. However, I can keep it tidy. Plus, we may be removing the giant tree in the back yard in the middle of spring, so there's not much hope in elaborate plans this year.

Getting Ready for Baby

We've gotten the car ready to sell, and are making arrangements for the beds. No more beginning of the month errands for me; the Vintner will take over those for a few months. We just need to sell the car, buy diapers, and a car seat and off we go into our new adventure!

Praying for Guidance

As we seek the guidance of a virtuous minister and congregation at this time, we are particularly attuned to the prayer of the Ember Days.

Ember Days

O ALMIGHTY God, who hast committed to the hands of men the ministry of reconciliation; We humbly beseech thee, by the inspiration of thy Holy Spirit, to put it into the hearts of many to offer themselves for this ministry; that thereby mankind may be drawn to thy blessed kingdom; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.

Ash Wednesday

ALMIGHTY and everlasting God, who hatest nothing that thou hast made, and dost forgive the sins of all those who are penitent; Create and make in us new and contrite hearts, that we, worthily lamenting our sins and acknowledging our wretchedness, may obtain of thee, the God of all mercy, perfect remission and forgiveness; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.

Praying for Ministry

Today we are praying for ministry in our journey home to the Continuing Anglican movement. As the months draw on, we don't know how long this will take or the exact path. All we know is that our faith in Christ grows stronger every day.

St. Mattias:

The Collect
O ALMIGHTY God, who into the place of the traitor Judas didst choose thy faithful servant Matthias to be of the number of the twelve Apostles; Grant that thy Church, being alway preserved from false Apostles, may be ordered and guided by faithful and true pastors; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.


Ember Day:

The Collect
O ALMIGHTY God, who hast committed to the hands of men the ministry of reconciliation; We humbly beseech thee, by the inspiration of thy Holy Spirit, to put it into the hearts of many to offer themselves for this ministry; that thereby mankind may be drawn to thy blessed kingdom; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.

Lent

The Collect
O LORD, who for our sake didst fast forty days and forty nights; Give us grace to use such abstinence, that, our flesh being subdued to the Spirit we may ever obey thy godly motions in righteousness, and true holiness, to thy honour and glory, who livest and reignest with the Father and the Holy Ghost, one God, world without end. Amen.

Ash Wednesday

On the First Day of Lent, the Office ensuing may be read immediately after the Prayer, We humbly beseech thee, O Father, in the Litany; or it may be used with Morning Prayer, or Evening Prayer, or as a separate Office.

The same Office may be read at other times, at the discretion of the Minister.

The Minister and the People kneeling, then shall be said by them this Psalm following:

Miserere mei, Deus. Psalm li.

HAVE mercy upon me, O God, after thy great goodness; * according to the multitude of thy mercies do away mine offences.

Wash me throughly from my wickedness, * and cleanse me from my sin.

For I acknowledge my faults, * and my sin is ever before me.

Against thee only have I sinned, and done this evil in thy sight; * that thou mightest be justified in thy saying, and clear when thou shalt judge.

Behold, I was shapen in wickedness, * and in sin hath my mother conceived me.

But lo, thou requirest truth in the inward parts, * and shalt make me to understand wisdom secretly.

Thou shalt purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean; * thou shalt wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow.

Thou shalt make me hear of joy and gladness, * that the bones which thou hast broken may rejoice.

Turn thy face from my sins, * and put out all my misdeeds.

Make me a clean heart, O God, * and renew a right spirit within me.

Cast me not away from thy presence, * and take not thy holy Spirit from me.

O give me the comfort of thy help again, * and stablish me with thy free Spirit.

Then shall I teach thy ways unto the wicked, * and sinners shall be converted unto thee.

Deliver me from blood-guiltiness, O God, thou that art the God of my health; * and my tongue shall sing of thy righteousness.

Thou shalt open my lips, O Lord, * and my mouth shall show thy praise.

For thou desirest no sacrifice, else would I give it thee; * but thou delightest not in burnt-offerings.

The sacrifice of God is a troubled spirit: * a broken and contrite heart, O God, shalt thou not despise.

O be favourable and gracious unto Sion; * build thou the walls of Jerusalem.

Then shalt thou be pleased with the sacrifice of righteousness, with the burnt-offerings and oblations; * then shall they offer young bullocks upon thine altar.

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, * and to the Holy Ghost;

As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, * world without end. Amen.



If the Litany hath been already said, the Minister may pass at once to O Lord, save thy servants;etc.

Lord, have mercy upon us.
Christ, have mercy upon us.
Lord, have mercy upon us.

OUR Father, who art in heaven, Hallowed be thy Name. Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done, On earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread. And forgive us our trespasses, As we forgive those who trespass against us. And lead us not into temptation, But deliver us from evil. Amen.

O Lord, save thy servants;
That put their trust in thee.
Send unto them help from above.
And evermore mightily defend them.
Help us, O God our Saviour.
And for the glory of thy Name deliver us;
be merciful to us sinners,for thy Name's sake.
O Lord, hear our prayer.
And let our cry come unto thee.

Let us pray.

O LORD, we beseech thee, mercifully hear our prayers, and spare all those who confess their sins unto thee; that they, whose consciences by sin are accused, by thy merciful pardon may be absolved; through Christ our Lord. Amen.

O MOST mighty God, and merciful Father, who hast compassion upon all men, and who wouldest not the death of a sinner, but rather that he should turn from his sin, and be saved; Mercifully forgive us our trespasses; receive and comfort us, who are grieved and wearied with the burden of our sins. Thy property is always to have mercy; to thee only it appertaineth to forgive sins. Spare us therefore, good Lord, spare thy people, whom thou hast redeemed; enter not into judgment with thy servants; but so turn thine anger from us, who meekly acknowledge our transgressions, and truly repent us of our faults, and so make haste to help us in this world, that we may ever live with thee in the world to come; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.


Then shall the People say this that followeth, after the Minister.

TURN thou us, O good Lord, and so shall we be turned. Be favourable, O Lord, Be favourable to thy people, Who turn to thee in weeping, fasting, and praying. For thou art a merciful God, Full of compassion, Long-suffering, and of great pity. Thou sparest when we deserve punishment, And in thy wrath thinkest upon mercy. Spare thy people, good Lord, spare them, And let not thine heritage be brought to confusion. Hear us, O Lord, for thy mercy is great, And after the multitude of thy mercies look upon us; Through the merits and mediation of thy blessed Son, Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.


Then the Minister shall say,

O GOD, whose nature and property is ever to have mercy and to forgive; Receive our humble petitions; and though we be tied and bound with the chain of our sins, yet let the pitifulness of thy great mercy loose us; for the honour of Jesus Christ, our Mediator and Advocate. Amen.

HE LORD bless us, and keep us. The LORD make his face to shine upon us, and be gracious unto us. The LORD lift up his countenance upon us, and give us peace, both now and evermore. Amen.

The Collect

ALMIGHTY and everlasting God, who hatest nothing that thou hast made, and dost forgive the sins of all those who are penitent; Create and make in us new and contrite hearts, that we, worthily lamenting our sins and acknowledging our wretchedness, may obtain of thee, the God of all mercy, perfect remission and forgiveness; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.
< > This Collect is to be said every day in Lent, after the Collect appointed for the day, until Palm Sunday.

The Epistle
Joel ii. 12.

TURN ye even to me, saith the LORD, with all your heart, and with fasting, and with weeping, and with mourning: and rend your heart, and not your garments, and turn unto the LORD your God: for he is gracious and merciful, slow to anger, and of great kindness, and repenteth him of the evil. Who knoweth if he will return and repent, and leave a blessing behind him; even a meat-offering and a drink-offering unto the LORD your God? Blow the trumpet in Zion, sanctify a fast, call a solemn assembly: gather the people, sanctify the congregation, assemble the elders, gather the children, and those that suck the breasts: let the bridegroom go forth of his chamber, and the bride out of her closet. Let the priests, the ministers of the LORD, weep between the porch and the altar, and let them say, Spare thy people, O LORD, and give not thine heritage to reproach, that the heathen should rule over them: wherefore should they say among the people, Where is their God?

The Gospel
St. Matthew vi. 16.

WHEN ye fast, be not, as the hypocrites, of a sad countenance: for they disfigure their faces, that they may appear unto men to fast. Verily I say unto you, They have their reward. But thou, when thou fastest, anoint thine head, and wash thy face; that thou appear not unto men to fast, but unto thy Father which is in secret: and thy Father, which seeth in secret, shall reward thee openly. Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and rust doth corrupt, and where thieves break through and steal: but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal: for where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.

Getting Ready for Baby

I haven't written much about the new baby to come, because it's been in the back of my mind. Now, as we enter these last few months, we're getting ready and making plans. June will be here before we know it.

Another Financial Goal Met

We have three projects to pay in cash before we can get back on track with our main goals. Last month, we bought a new washer. This month, we are purchasing a new windshield for the Vintner's car. Then, we have a major expense of tree removal. I shudder on that one. It may be two thousand dollars or more. Even so, we're two thirds of the way there as of now. We'll be back on task soon.

A New Day Breaks

With the new day, we're feeling a touch better, and there is sunshine. It's still cold, and we'll be at home all day. Even so, with a stock pot on the back burner, I'm thinking we're turning a corner today, and getting well.

Sexagesima

O LORD God, who seest that we put not our trust in any thing that we do; Mercifully grant that by thy power we may be defended against all adversity; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.

The Epistle
2 Corinthians xi. 19.

YE suffer fools gladly, seeing ye yourselves are wise. For ye suffer, if a man bring you into bondage, if a man devour you, if a man take of you, if a man exalt himself, if a man smite you on the face. I speak as concerning reproach, as though we had been weak. Howbeit whereinsoever any is bold, (I speak foolishly,) I am bold also. Are they Hebrews? so am I. Are they Israelites? so am I. Are they the seed of Abraham? so am I. Are they ministers of Christ? (I speak as a fool) I am more; in labours more abundant, in stripes above measure, in prisons more frequent, in deaths oft. Of the Jews five times received I forty stripes save one. Thrice was I beaten with rods, once was I stoned, thrice I suffered shipwreck, a night and a day I have been in the deep; in journeyings often, in perils of waters, in perils of robbers, in perils by mine own countrymen, in perils by the heathen, in perils in the city, in perils in the wilderness, in perils in the sea, in perils among false brethren; in weariness and painfulness, in watchings often, in hunger and thirst, in fastings often, in cold and nakedness. Beside those things that are without, that which cometh upon me daily, the care of all the churches. Who is weak, and I am not weak? who is offended, and I burn not? If I must needs glory, I will glory of the things which concern mine infirmities. The God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, which is blessed for evermore, knoweth that I lie not.

The Gospel
St. Luke viii. 4. WHEN much people were gathered together, and were come to him out of every city, he spake by a parable: A sower went out to sow his seed: and as he sowed, some fell by the way-side; and it was trodden down, and the fowls of the air devoured it. And some fell upon a rock; and as soon as it was sprung up, it withered away, because it lacked moisture. And some fell among thorns; and the thorns sprang up with it, and choked it. And other fell on good ground, and sprang up, and bare fruit an hundredfold. And when he had said these things, he cried, He that hath ears to hear, let him hear. And his disciples asked him, saying, What might this parable be? And he said, Unto you it is given to know the mysteries of the kingdom of God: but to others in parables; that seeing they might not see, and hearing they might not understand. Now the parable is this: The seed is the word of God. Those by the way-side are they that hear; then cometh the devil, and taketh away the word out of their hearts, lest they should believe and be saved. They on the rock are they, which, when they hear, receive the word with joy; and these have no root, which for a while believe, and in time of temptation fall away. And that which fell among thorns are they, which, when they have heard, go forth, and are choked with cares and riches and pleasures of this life, and bring no fruit to perfection. But that on the good ground are they, which in an honest and good heart, having heard the word, keep it, and bring forth fruit with patience.

Illness

Our illness continues. We are quite poorly off, compared to our normal state. I can't help but wonder if this is pertussis, instead of a cold. Medical opinion would be "that can't be so" since we are all vaccinated. I am deeply skeptical of the efficacy of vaccination, and this only furthers my skepticism. No matter what the actual condition, our normal routine is interrupted, and we are all resting.

A Sick Day

We're down with a cold here at the Cottage. It's a quiet day at home, eating soup and no play group. We'll host next week.

The Purification

ALMIGHTY and everliving God, we humbly beseech thy Majesty, that, as thy only-begotten Son was this day presented in the temple in substance of our flesh, so we may be presented unto thee with pure and clean hearts, by the same thy Son Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.

The Epistle
Malachi iii. 1.

BEHOLD, I will send my messenger, and he shall prepare the way before me: and the Lord, whom ye seek, shall suddenly come to his temple, even the messenger of the covenant, whom ye delight in: behold, he shall come, saith the LORD of hosts. But who may abide the day of his coming? and who shall stand when he appeareth? for he is like a refiner's fire, and like fullers' sope: and he shall sit as a refiner and purifier of silver: and he shall purify the sons of Levi, and purge them as gold and silver, that they may offer unto the LORD an offering in righteousness. Then shall the offering of Judah and Jerusalem be pleasant unto the LORD, as in the days of old, and as in former years. And I will come near to you to judgment; and I will be a swift witness against the sorcerers, and against the adulterers, and against false swearers, and against those that oppress the hireling in his wages, the widow, and the fatherless, and that turn aside the stranger from his right, and fear not me, saith the LORD of hosts.

The Gospel
St. Luke ii. 22. AND when the days of her purification according to the law of Moses were accomplished, they brought him to Jerusalem, to present him to the Lord; (as it is written in the law of the Lord, Every male that openeth the womb shall be called holy to the Lord;) and to offer a sacrifice according to that which is said in the law of the Lord, A pair of turtle-doves, or two young pigeons. And, behold, there was a man in Jerusalem, whose name was Simeon; and the same man was just and devout, waiting for the consolation of Israel: and the Holy Ghost was upon him. And it was revealed unto him by the Holy Ghost, that he should not see death, before he had seen the Lord's Christ. And he came by the Spirit into the temple: and when the parents brought in the child Jesus, to do for him after the custom of the law, then took he him up in his arms, and blessed God, and said, Lord, now lettest thou thy servant depart in peace, according to thy word: for mine eyes have seen thy salvation, which thou hast prepared before the face of all people; a light to lighten the Gentiles, and the glory of thy people Israel. And Joseph and his mother marvelled at those things which were spoken of him. And Simeon blessed them, and said unto Mary his mother, Behold, this child is set for the fall and rising again of many in Israel; and for a sign which shall be spoken against; (yea, a sword shall pierce through thy own soul also,) that the thoughts of many hearts may be revealed. And there was one Anna, a prophetess, the daughter of Phanuel, of the tribe of Aser: she was of a great age, and had lived with an husband seven years from her virginity; and she was a widow of about fourscore and four years, which departed not from the temple, but served God with fastings and prayers night and day. And she coming in that instant gave thanks likewise unto the Lord, and spake of him to all them that looked for redemption in Jerusalem. And when they had performed all things according to the law of the Lord, they returned into Galilee, to their own city Nazareth. And the child grew, and waxed strong in spirit, filled with wisdom: and the grace of God was upon him.

Septuagesima: Grace upon grace

As a new Continuing Anglican, I am as a worker who arrived in the eleventh hour. I'm a poor one to expound upon the season of Shrovetide. Instead, I consider the Continuing Anglican's blog.

Also, as it is the first of the month, I have the usual monthly errands for shopping, plus more, due to unusual expenses. We'll be out all day.

Then, tonight we pray in preparation of the Purification tomorrow. Tomorrow will be an extraordinarily busy day, with many lessons from morning until night. The time is the preparation for the preparation, and I certainly feel it spiritually and practically.

A Second Recommendation

I've just finished reading Mere Christianity. I must recommend it again, as I did when I first listened to part of it, and posted it on my side bar. It's worth both listening to (since it was originally meant as a radio broadcast) and reading. Either way knocks one's socks off.

A Morning Out

We'll be getting out this morning for an appointment for me. I missed it last week, and will get back on track this week. Then, we've got lessons and a bit of cleaning. I also want to think of needlework sometime today. I've let it go for weeks now, and am itching for something new and fresh.

Budgeting

Every month here at the Cottage, we have a budget meeting for the next month's spending. We plan it all out on paper before the month begins, and then we track our spending both for tax purposes as well as to help with budgeting analysis and future planning. We've done very well, although not as well as others. We meet our goals and no longer have crises or undue surprises. The stress on our household is greatly reduced, and we never fight over money. Truly - we never, ever fight over money. This month, we have yet to have the meeting for February. We are awaiting the electric bill, and hope to receive it today. If so, tonight's schedule includes the budget meeting.

The Conversion of St. Paul

O GOD, who, through the preaching of the blessed Apostle Saint Paul, hast caused the light of the Gospel to shine throughout the world; Grant, we beseech thee, that we, having his wonderful conversion in remembrance, may show forth our thankfulness unto thee for the same, by following the holy doctrine which he taught; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.

The Epistle
Acts ix. 1.

AND Saul, yet breathing out threatenings and slaughter against the disciples of the Lord, went unto the high priest, and desired of him letters to Damascus to the synagogues, that if he found any of this way, whether they were men or women, he might bring them bound unto Jerusalem. And as he journeyed, he came near Damascus: and suddenly there shined round about him a light from heaven: and he fell to the earth, and heard a voice saying unto him, Saul, Saul, why persecutest thou me? And he said, Who art thou, Lord? And the Lord said, I am Jesus whom thou persecutest: it is hard for thee to kick against the pricks. And he trembling and astonished said, Lord, what wilt thou have me to do? And the Lord said unto him, Arise, and go into the city, and it shall be told thee what thou must do. And the men which journeyed with him stood speechless, hearing a voice, but seeing no man. And Saul arose from the earth; and when his eyes were opened, he saw no man: but they led him by the hand, and brought him into Damascus. And he was three days without sight, and neither did eat nor drink. And there was a certain disciple at Damascus, named Ananias; and to him said the Lord in a vision, Ananias. And he said, Behold, I am here, Lord. And the Lord said unto him, Arise, and go into the street which is called Straight, and enquire in the house of Judas for one called Saul, of Tarsus: for, behold, he prayeth, and hath seen in a vision a man named Ananias coming in, and putting his hand on him, that he might receive his sight. Then Ananias answered, Lord, I have heard by many of this man, how much evil he hath done to thy saints at Jerusalem: and here he hath authority from the chief priests to bind all that call on thy name. But the Lord said unto him, Go thy way: for he is a chosen vessel unto me, to bear my name before the Gentiles, and kings, and the children of Israel: for I will shew him how great things he must suffer for my name's sake. And Ananias went his way, and entered into the house; and putting his hands on him said, Brother Saul, the Lord, even Jesus, that appeared unto thee in the way as thou camest, hath sent me, that thou mightest receive thy sight, and be filled with the Holy Ghost. And immediately there fell from his eyes as it had been scales: and he received sight forthwith, and arose, and was baptized. And when he had received meat, he was strengthened. Then was Saul certain days with the disciples which were at Damascus. And straightway he preached Christ in the synagogues, that he is the Son of God. But all that heard him were amazed, and said; Is not this he that destroyed them which called on this name in Jerusalem, and came hither for that intent, that he might bring them bound unto the chief priests? But Saul increased the more in strength, and confounded the Jews which dwelt at Damascus, proving that this is very Christ.

The Gospel
St. Matthew xix. 27. PETER answered and said unto Jesus, Behold, we have forsaken all, and followed thee; what shall we have therefore? And Jesus said unto them, Verily I say unto you, That ye which have followed me, in the regeneration when the Son of man shall sit in the throne of his glory, ye also shall sit upon twelve thrones, judging the twelve tribes of Israel. And every one that hath forsaken houses, or brethren, or sisters, or father, or mother, or wife, or children, or lands, for my name's sake, shall receive an hundred-fold, and shall inherit everlasting life. But many that are first shall be last; and the last shall be first.

A Quiet Day

With no mail, today is a bit quiet. We'll have lessons and the food factory and fun for the boys.

Ordinary Time

Today, we return to the ordinal counting of time, or Ordinary Time. No more easing into homeschool lessons, or fitting in the house work. It's regular days until Lenten fasting. We anticipate a bit of rain, and hope to get in all the shopping before then. With luck, I'll get both a nap and housecleaning. With the kitchen drains fixed, there is much cleaning in the kitchen as well.

New Washing Machine

We have a new washing machine this morning. We purchased a "scratch and dent" model, damaged at a warehouse. We came in under budget and saved so much. There is no way we could have afforded to buy such a nice machine otherwise. I'm not bothered in the least. My laundry room is not for entertaining.

Now, we are dealing with a plumbing problem in the kitchen. It's been a rough few days with both laundry and dishes in crisis, while trying to begin new lessons. We're in a bit of a financial annoyance, but a few years ago, this would have put us in financial crisis. Thanks to Dave Ramsey and our faith, we are merely annoyed.

Three Kings and New Lessons

Today we begin Epiphany season with new homeschool lessons. We are starting kindergarten since we blew through preschool in the autumn. We'll focus on the Three Kings for today, and revisit the manifestation of the Christ to the Gentiles, until Candlemas. Also, we'll be baking a King Cake, and fingers crossed that it turns out well. Yesterday, we didn't make it on reading Twelfth Night, but aren't too worried. We don't properly begin Shakespeare until the autumn of this year, anyway. We did read the first two chapters of the Wizard of Oz for my older son, as a special I'm-outgrowing-naptime treat.

Propers for The Epiphany, or the Manifestation of Christ to the Gentiles

The Collect

O GOD, who by the leading of a star didst manifest thy only-begotten Son to the Gentiles; Mercifully grant that we, who know thee now by faith, may after this life have the fruition of thy glorious Godhead; through the same thy Son Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.
< > This Collect is to be said daily throughout the Octave.

The Epistle
Ephesians iii. 1.

FOR this cause I Paul, the prisoner of Jesus Christ for you Gentiles, if ye have heard of the dispensation of the grace of God, which is given me to you-ward: how that by revelation he made known unto me the mystery; (as I wrote afore in few words, whereby, when ye read, ye may understand my knowledge in the mystery of Christ) which in other ages was not made known unto the sons of men, as it is now revealed unto his holy apostles and prophets by the Spirit; that the Gentiles should be fellow-heirs, and of the same body, and partakers of his promise in Christ by the gospel: whereof I was made a minister, according to the gift of the grace of God given unto me by the effectual working of his power. Unto me, who am less than the least of all saints, is this grace given, that I should preach among the Gentiles the unsearchable riches of Christ; and to make all men see what is the fellowship of the mystery, which from the beginning of the world hath been hid in God, who created all things by Jesus Christ: to the intent that now unto the principalities and powers in heavenly places might be known by the church the manifold wisdom of God, according to the eternal purpose which he purposed in Christ Jesus our Lord: in whom we have boldness and access with confidence by the faith of him.

The Gospel
St. Matthew ii. 1. WHEN Jesus was born in Bethlehem of Judaea, in the days of Herod the king, behold, there came wise men from the east to Jerusalem, saying, Where is he that is born King of the Jews? for we have seen his star in the east, and are come to worship him. When Herod the king had heard these things, he was troubled, and all Jerusalem with him. And when he had gathered all the chief priests and scribes of the people together, he demanded of them where Christ should be born. And they said unto him, In Bethlehem of Judaea: for thus it is written by the prophet, And thou Bethlehem, in the land of Juda, art not the least among the princes of Juda: for out of thee shall come a Governor, that shall rule my people Israel. Then Herod, when he had privily called the wise men, enquired of them diligently what time the star appeared. And he sent them to Bethlehem, and said, Go and search diligently for the young child; and when ye have found him, bring me word again, that I may come and worship him also. When they had heard the king, they departed; and, lo, the star, which they saw in the east, went before them, till it came and stood over where the young child was. When they saw the star, they rejoiced with exceeding great joy. And when they were come into the house, they saw the young child with Mary his mother, and fell down, and worshipped him: and when they had opened their treasures, they presented unto him gifts; gold, and frankincense, and myrrh. And being warned of God in a dream that they should not return to Herod, they departed into their own country another way.

Twelfth Night

In future years, we'll read Shakespeare's Twelfth Night on this day for lessons. However, the children are so young, I don't know if we'll get to it today. Plus, I'm a little worn down this year. I don't mind waiting until tomorrow to read it either. I'm shopping for supplies to make my own King Cake this year, and making puff pastry from scratch. It may be too much to add on more.

A Birthday

Today is my birthday. It's a busy, if cold day here at the Cottage, with lots of fun and merriment and eating.

Happy New Year!

We welcome the new year with prayer and rejoicing. It's a time for family and time away from the computer.